Been a crappy week ,exams are over and yep it’s here the Pastors are asking me to join API. It’s finally here, so here we are talking about STUDYING again, oh I just hate that, I hate having to read. I’m just tired, I want a break, but I know if I do so I’m unproductive. Damn it I seem to be self destructing here!
GST is going up, my e-mail server is down, I have lots of work to complete, I’ve decisions to make on my career, I have to clean up my room, I have things that I have to buy, I have commitments that I have to keep. I need to organize my life a little, my table is starting to get messy again and it’s a sign that I’m getting confused again.
I just want a little time alone, alone in my own abode, I do not really know but it’s been a shitty week or at least for me it has been, RT training is getting me no where and I think I will not pass my phase 1 or Remedial Training, this sucks and I hate it, I hate a lot of things, I hate people bugging me.
I hate selfish people some idiots are more concern about work then people, oh if you’re wondering someone was pissed because he/she would be late for work as someone fainted on a bus. Instead of helping that selfish b*****d complained.
I hate it when people tell you they are disheartened and never give you a reason, I hate it when I cannot make a decision, I hate it when there are so many variables when you need to make a decision, I hate it when I have no money to buy things I like, I hate it when I’m not appreciated, I hate it when people keep telling me what to do, I hate it when I cannot do what other people ask me to do, I hate it when I keep secrets, I hate it when people keep secrets, I hate it when I see not future, I hate it when I do not make that future. Sigh….
Sorry everyone I just need to get it out, let me bitch about it and I’ll be okay. I think…
