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You know everyone says that you just need about 6 hours of sleep to feel energized and recharged to face the day. But I do not feel so, and I think sleep as important as it is must be done right. I just feel so tired every single day now, of course this stems from the stress accumulated from work and other thoughts racing around my mind.

Some times I wonder how will I be able to sleep better? Sleeping pills? Better bed? Food eaten before sleep? I guess a little prayer and meditation would be good food for the soul and would be a good answer for me to put my worries of the day to rest. Well as they say, tomorrow will be a better day. Till then, sleep well and enjoy your day. YAWNS~~~~

I was waiting for the 105 service today, my iPod playing my tunes and putting it in repeat I think the song played for at least 10 times before the bus arrived.

Lo and behold not 1 but 3 buses and that was after 45 min of wait! I mean what the heck? Why would 3 buses turn up at the same time? Boarded the last bus which gave me some seating space, well talk about world class transportation service. Bah!

105 takes a long time to come but tonite was rediculous, I was so tired just waiting for the bus and I’m still puzzeled why all the buses turned up at the same time? Anyone care to shed some light?

Was checking my Google analytics and guess what? I did not have visitors on the 9th if June, which incidentally  is my birthday.  Hahaha, but it was great this year many people remembered and especially when those that remember are the ones who love you

Back to the report… Do let me know how you would like your Birthday, perhaps I could compile a list of things so that it would be less of a headache when your friends want to find out what to do during that special day.

Yeah that’s the feeling I have right now, I’m not sure what am I doing and what the heck I’m typing everyday. Writing the story of someone else is not easy and to make it award winning is even harder then I would have expected it to be. There are just too many things which I would have to do and I’m kind of stress and it’s not good for writing well.

Stress != Good Writer

Now remember that people the above statement is very important, if you want to write well you need to have a clear mind and that is what is needed to ensure that you thoughts are coherent and good. How I wish I could reach into my brain and clear the clutter that has formed up, the expectations and all the uncertainty. Sigh, I think prayer does help in some ways, perhaps a break away from this madness to seek solitude and rest would be the best for me now.

I hope this lasts for a week. If not I’ll probably stone once again, when people are around I need to find the energy to push through the day. When people are not I’ll just sit and find some way to have fun, oh work and the insecurities of the future are bogging me down.

How? I’m not doing the stuff that I want to do in life… YET.

One more day, new set of issues, new visions and new goals. Life can just be so melancholic.

It’s been a crazy few weeks for me. I think the reason being I’m being left to fend for myself and make decisions and be responsible for my actions as how it would indirectly affect the company I am working for and at the same time my reputation.

I do feel the lack of experience and the need for me to catch up with what the company is doing is a constant struggle. I always feel that need to leave everything and run away to somewhere, some place where I can take rest. I definitely know it’s not possible to find peace by myself but sometimes I just feel so inadequate to face up to God.

I feel the need to escape and run away, I’m feeling down and out. I just need to press on, one step at a time.

Ahem… yes it’s that time of the year again, where the ladies will expect some love to be dispatched to them. It’s that time when the guy has to weight various factors before making the ultimate decision to purchase something.

You know how it is when you purchase a really beautiful bouquet of flowers at exorbitant prices and hand it over to your girl, instead of seeing a person full of “love” you sometimes see them express their dissatisfaction of you wasting you money on flowers on this day. The day when flower shops turn into guillotine, hehe … although I did see some online “vendor” market their goods for a great price.

Everything today is over-rated. A meal at a restaurant will set you back at least $50 per person and almost everything romantic will be made expensive on this day. Is this the only day when 2 people can express their love for each other? Why does it have to be this day, so can couples take a break and not love each other on the other days?

Anyway, prices for today are crazy, overheard a guy trying to buy a dozen roses and it would cost him $100 for a dozen. It’s sheer madness I tell you, but if you do not get them at that price, your lady would think you’re stingy. Sigh how hard is it to make someone happy?

Well Happy Valentine’s Day everyone

Finally I have got the site up again, been having problems displaying the site. I wonder why anyways it’s up again and it should be good for a while, better start to work on backing up and enhancing the site. Anyway do check out www.ntotd.com it’s where you can display your latest “TOY”. Anything goes and as long as you love it just show it off.

When I thought that it could not drop any further, came along our friendly mobile phone operators who decided to drop the bomb on many one day. Prices dropped from $488 to $388 and now it’s only $88 with a 2 year mobile phone contract!

I’m not sure if this is a good thing as many will start to use this phone and it kind of takes out the way the phone was suppose to be marketed. The E65 is an executive phone meant for Professionals, Managers, Executives & Businessmen, whoring the phone at such a price only makes the phone look cheap, really cheap. Good thing I got mine for $178 if not I’ll feel as if I have just shot myself in the foot. So those who wanna get a great offer head down to your friendly mobile operators and pick up a slick looking Nokia E65 now.

Available at Singtel, Starhub and M1

A friend sent me this nice site about inspirational people who succeeded in life. They never did give up and dared to dream that dream and move ahead taking and sticking to their choice, hoping that one day the world will be moved. Eventually they did and these are little snippets which I guess we can take and use in our lives. Every time I decide that it’s the end, it’s good to have a little mental vitamins to jolt you back up and realise that life is beyond a little failure, a future of success is within reach as long as you persevere on with an unwavering spirit.

Read the little snippets over at this site.
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I’m not sure but seriously I’m not optimistic about things anymore, I’ve kind of lost it along the way. I wanna look up and persevere on, most of the time I guess it’s unnecessary stress and pressure I place upon myself. I think it’s about crossing the breaking point, I’m there already and I’m not sure how to move on from here on.

Jump or not to jump?

Tomorrow is the day, I’m not sure anymore, at least not anymore then when I asked for the prospectus. Oh yeah, for those wondering, API is not Application Program Interface, something which I studied for a 1/4 of my life is now going to change and API be to me Asian Pastoral Institute from tomorrow onwards.

Someone did ask me the other day why am I going for API, I really did not have an answer. Perhaps out of pressure or own willfulness  I decided to enter the next level of education, the education of spirituality. For whatever it’s worth I think I’ll just pray about it and see how things go tomorrow, perhaps I’m really not ready for the leap of faith. Just thinking about the sheer amount of work I’ll have to complete and making my already busy life busier. I really do need the strength to carry on forward, listening to the lives of others I just wonder why am I placed in such a situation having to carry such a “burden”.

Well let me solve tomorrow’s problems tomorrow, nothing cannot be solved, it’s just a matter of perspective.

Lets start slowly and build a disciplined life, reason being I think there are things that I need to do in order to glorify God and at the same time keep myself in good shape. Even the small little things like keeping fit and looking good are things that signify Godliness as it reflects from your character. I mean think about it this way, would you rather believe someone that Christ is doing a work in their life if they appear sloppy, sleepy and always carrying a “sian/bored” look on their face or someone whom is bright, cheery and full of energy?

Thus I am documenting down my journey which I will take henceforth and using these “rules” which will continue to increase in numbers to be my milestones in making myself a better person both in Christ and to others. I hope that one day I can look back and see what I have achieved and not be ashamed of what I did not do.

So for today this is my RULE.

RULE 1: Drink enough water everyday

I will drink at least 3 litres of water a day and keep myself hydrated. This is a simple challenge I set myself to do, this is the first milestone, it may sound silly to you but it is a small pebble to a great mountain. Because drinking water keeps you in good health, we are privillaged to have drinking water from the tap and it is a bad excuse not to drink and keep ourselves in health.
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Drinking water to maintain good health

Well it’s here, a cross road in life again. The beacon is set and lit up red awaiting my attention. I know language is not my forte but please do excuse me when I’m unable to articulate well, especially in the grammar department.

So it was time for the half yearly appraisal and I’m presented with a fresh perspective of life and what to expect from hence forth. Where do I see myself and what do I see myself become? It is not a time for self pity but a time for reflection and thought. As a kid I always have dreams of being someone but I have never found myself to be resilient in what I do and always put out ideas but never been able to see them through. Things did change during my days in polytechnic and during a year in secondary school when my Maths teacher cried in front of my class. But I kind of loss this fighting spirit along the way and cheerful as I am I have eroded the very core of my being. I have lost something, someone or worse… myself.

So blame it on national service, 2 1/2 freaking years of mindless exercise and duties. It totally dulled my mind and I think I got really stupid in those 2 1/2 years. Stripped of my drive, where was the “I want to go OCS and become officer spirit”? Damn it what happened? Where did I mess up?

The stage is set for a recollection of ideas and of course the review of my life in the next few days. I just need to pray about it and spend time talking to the person who treasures me the most. I really need wisdom to carry on, I’m tired and need a break, I want to redo my room and be re-energized again.

Think a little, pray a lot and take a leap of faith.

Here goes the GST hike as of 1st July 2007, Singaporeans now play 7% GST for things they purchase rising from the previous 5%. The great part about this is the the government is very nice to give us a “package” to cushion the “blow”. Well there is the best part about this, in order to prevent oneself from paying more then what the offset package provides you can only spend SGD$10,000 so that the SGD$200 covers your hike of 2%. Well that being said, it is good as at least I can save more and spend less. Those who are poorer and do not even get SGD$10,000 a year would definately benefit from this program and it becomes an ideal situation as the poorer would benefit from this. Yay for being poor ya?

NOT…

Why do I say this? reason being the GST only went up by 2% but vendors have already started to take advantage of this hike and make ridiculous and blatant increases in their prices. I’ll cite an example, I went to Maxwell market to have a Po Lo Bao, so prices were usually SGD$1 for the bun which I felt was just okay, I mean it’s just a bun and some char siew inside it. So I paid up and was stopped by the kind auntie who said, sorry mister the price has risen to SGD$1.40. I was taken a back and being the nice guy I paid up and then started to do some maths.

The bloody bun went up 40%! 40 freaking percent, I mean come on using the hike to create an opportunity to exploit the public. If I want to pay SGD$1.40 for a freaking bun from a hawker center I rather give it a miss and just have something else. It’s a bloody rip off if you tell me, please wake up your idea and think about it. I can get something of a even higher quality at breadtalk and still show off that I’m eating expensive bread. They should be fined for making such blatant increases!
Consumer protection is really poor in Singapore and retailers will continue to do as they please. I feel that one day I’ll be one of the poor ones in this country. Prices are just going to continue rising in this cut throat society. It will just suck and suck you dry, one day GST will go up again and it’s all right because they say so and retailers will continue to play games with the consumers. If nothing is done about “controlling” the retailers the consumers will just suffer, this is one of the perhaps many other cases I have yet to encounter.